Finally, I can say that I am done. Yesterday marked the completion of my Major Project, something that has kept me occupied for the last three months, the culmination of four years studying/working hard as a visual communications student. A love/hate relationship that at the moment I won’t be missing anytime soon. In saying that, I will probably look back on it down the line and think to myself ‘Hey remember that time when you were designing just for you?’—an occurrence that tutors tell us is inevitable, especially when working for “The Man”.
As soon as I was able to pack up all of my collateral after my panel presentation—then was I truly able to just breathe and take it all in. It may sound all too dramatic, but my experience this semester was one with its many ups and downs. Ranging from the highest of highs with amazing insights and moments of design clarity, to the lowest of lows during late night mental blocks, self-doubt and technology fails (my Mac crashed the day after I sent artwork to print).
Looking at the things I’ve designed, I can only feel satisfaction. Satisfied that all of the late nights and all nighters, paper cuts, technology fails, money spent (ridiculous amounts at that) and time invested during the past three months was and is all worth it in the end. The love/hate aspect of this relationship always comes out when I say that I ‘hate’ my work, when in reality I’m just taking out my frustration on something that I’ve been immersed in for such a prolonged period of time. But, when it is exposed to new eyes I feel nothing but pride for what I have accomplished—which is rare because I usually think everything I do is substandard (see, I’m too hard on myself).
Right now I feel the bittersweet realization that I am no longer a student, yes that means I am free for now (time wise). But what now? What do I do? I still don’t feel like a full-fledged adult at twenty-two. I think now is the time for me to get some life experience.
▲2 | reblog▲ | reblog“Death is very likely the single best invention of Life. It is Life’s change agent. It clears out the old to make way for the new. Right now the new is you, but someday not too long from now, you will gradually become the old and be cleared away. Sorry to be so dramatic, but it is quite true.”
- Steve Jobs
